To Go or Not To Go?

I was invited this week to go on a mission trip to Cambodia in March. It would be March 15th through the 25th. I've been excited about this trip since I first heard about it, although I wasn't going to be allowed to go at first. They are building a fence for an orphanage and I wasn't "fence-building-worthy" or something.

Anyway last week, he called and invited me to go. I have never been out of the country. I have never been on a mission trip -- well, I went to St. Louis once to help build a church, but I don't necessarily consider that a "mission trip".

I can hardly sleep because I'm thinking about going. I think about all of the things I could learn. I think about being able to get off of a plane in a different place -- a foreign place. I think about knowing that I made a difference to orphan boys and girls by the simple act of building a fence.

On the other hand, there's the $3000 it's going to take to go. Not a lot, really. . . I mean, in the grand scheme of things. The trip is 10 days, so there are kid issues -- who will take care of them? I'll miss Payton's birthday and our anniversary. . . again, in the grand scheme of things, not a big deal. I'm the only girl going at this point, which doesn't really bother me, but you know how that is.

So, now I'm just trying to decide if I'm supposed to go or not. . . that I'm not sure yet.